it started with a feeling. this ain’t it. dig deeper, check. decide to follow my guts. stop absorbing others’ fears, check. must rent apartment. find a lovely couple. two year lease signed. draft resignation. sit on that for a few weeks. this really, really ain’t it. hit send. the discomfort of uncertainty sets in. yoga yoga yoga. embrace it. settle in. notice but don’t judge. walk into the fear. pack things up. move home temporarily. ready to leap into fear of the unknown. flights confirmed. two month countdown.
january 9. stopover in van for five days. mountains take my breath away and the trees give it right back. lungs full. heart open. i’m not done here. january 13. hop on a plane to china then another to bali. a fellow canadian who will eventually become my roommate at yoga camp, emily, is waiting at the airport ‘because she recognized my name from the email chain’. starting to trust the universe. especially enjoying the not knowing part. the shala in the rainforest. twenty one days of yoga. ganesha, remover of obstacles. gatekeeper. yes, please, ganesha. rice fields and humidity and acceptance. adho mukha svanasana five hundred times. my feet are closer to the earth than they’ve ever been. the rainforest teaches us lessons in abundance and trust. jennifer teaches us the power of gratitude. the balinese of laws of karma. and forty nine fellow souls in understanding. we inhale and exhale together. we shake it out. we see. om.
another plane to india. tears fill my eyes as we fly over the little island of bali and i say farewell. i will be back. hyderabad to meet shelan. craziness. culture shock. questions. anklets. excitement. long sleeves to cover flesh. hair braided. tuk tuk rides. laughter. hours driving in sweaty cars and arguments about air conditioning. laughter. inspiration. dream talks. masala. bindis. watermelon that tastes mostly like red onion. night markets and corn on the cob. goa by scooter. abode bombay. warmth. laughter. love. and pure, pure joy.
yet another plane. bombay to london direct. surprising mum. she thinks i’m staying longer in india. surprise success. hugs and tears and story time and my sister and mum in the same hotel room = home. museums, parks, jokes, hummus. the three girls. the most special trip.
home for two months. some photographing and storytelling and yoga teaching. a beautiful art show & i am overwhelmed with gratitude. just full to the brim. thank you family. thank you friends. thank you Universe.
off tomorrow to the west. with a heart full of love and lungs ready to be filled again.
// photos taken in munnar, india by shelan